Faith is trusting God about what he has said.

Faith is believe believing in Jesus, even though you weren’t there when he walked the earth. You did not see his cross, but you believe he was crucified in your place. Your voice was not heard outside the empty tomb, but you will say with everything in you that you believe he stepped out of it fully alive.

You haven’t seen heaven where your name is written down and your inheritance awaits you, but you believe it is all there because God’s servants have told you about these things in his book.

You believe in God’s Holy Spirit, not because you have seen him, but because the word of God testifies to his presence in your life.

You even have faith with regard to your sinfulness because you accept God’s word as your one and only standard to define sin. Furthermore, you confess your sin to God because you believe his promise to forgive you when you do (1st John 1:8-10).

This is all faith, along with many other things you do because you know God taught you to do them. Your faith is exactly what God said he counts as righteousness, “But to the one who does not work, but believes in Him who justifies the ungodly, his faith is credited as righteousness”, letter to the Romans 4:5.

In my smallness, I want to force sight. I want to see it somehow, that God is okay with me, that I am accepted. I am so undeserving that I have trouble
believing in this kind of love, this kind of grace being for me.

My eyes tell me I am not worthy. My eyes are correct. My eyes tell me I do not deserve this credit. My eyes are not lying to me about that either. This is exactly why God crediting righteousness to me in return for my faith in Him is the only plan that will work for me.

Faith really is my victory, my ONLY victory and yours too (1st John 5:4).